Depression day 4

Funny how life goes round in circles. I have been trying to avoid this for at least a decade but now thanks to the pressure of work it's back - DEPRESSION. Having een described by my partner on my return from work on Tuesday as a basket case I arrived in my doectors consulting room on Wednesday to be told what I already knew- I am depressed!
That feeling of being totally useless is over powering the small voice that tells me I am a good teacher, mother, lover or whatever. The light at the end of the tunnel seems to move away every time I take a step towards it. I know that the pills will take a while to work but the suicidal thoughts don't make the wait any easier. So it's just time but the thought of going back to work just scares me to death and even hearing the solicitor saying SLT are holding out the olive branch does nothing to encourage my return to Thurstable so I won't be pushing the doc to get me back before the end of term. Still worrying about not gettign another job loom large and are not helping me get better. Well here's hoping time really does heal.